Sick and Tired of being Sick and Tired

No matter what we’re sick and tired of,

We don’t have to continue being sick and tired. There is a process capable of igniting change in our lives. The irony is that as soon as we make the decision to begin the 12 step process, we realize our fears of change, where groundless. This process offers a gentle program of change, one step at a time. No single step is so frightening that we can’t work it, by its self. As we apply the steps to our lives, we experience a change that frees us.

This whole time I’m sitting here thinking, it took a whole lot of sickness and a whole lot of being tired to get me back into this process of self-awareness and spiritual awakening. I think the reason was that my ego has allowed me to have a high mental/emotional pain tolerance. Continue reading “Sick and Tired of being Sick and Tired”

All Spiritual Principles work together.

Sun rises inspite of the treesAll Spiritual Principles work together.

Learning to live by Universal Principles begins with Hope, But one primary Principle within all of them is the Principle of Surrender. Someone once told that anytime I walked into a recovery meeting and I didn’t know what the topic was. The topic was always ‘surrender.’ And what that meant for me at first was to surrender to my own thoughts because that’s all I knew how to do. But learning to live by Spiritual Principles taught me how to surrender my thoughts to the Principles. Continue reading “All Spiritual Principles work together.”

I could not imagine having the Life I have today.

I remember what my life was like back then.

Photo by Carmen Avram

I remember those days of not being able to function without help in liquid form. My personnel coordinator (the guy who gave me work) would often make the joke, “Red Bull before a gig, Red Dog after.” He may have been being funny, but it was a reality. I would walk into a gig with a four pack of Red Bull. As soon as the gig was over, I was looking for a six-pack. Red Dog was the best I could afford at that time.

Just two months prior, I was living in a nice one bedroom loft. Of course, the only furnishings I had was an old boombox radio, a Commodore 64 Continue reading “I could not imagine having the Life I have today.”