I will not put my Trust in you, but I will have Faith in you.
I remember a time when I was not able to drive myself around. I had to rely on others to get me to, and from meetings, or to and from work. Many a time I’d be sitting outside of the apartment complex waiting on someone to pick me up. They’d be running 30, 40 min or even an hour late. I used to get so pissed off. Eventually, I started realizing, that there are times when stuff happens, and there’s nothing we can do about it.
I remember those days of not being able to function without help in liquid form. My personnel coordinator (the guy who gave me work) would often make the joke, “Red Bull before a gig, Red Dog after.” He may have been being funny, but it was a reality. I would walk into a gig with a four pack of Red Bull. As soon as the gig was over, I was looking for a six-pack. Red Dog was the best I could afford at that time.
It’s been a week since I’ve written anything. I sat down a few times and tried to force myself to write. There have been several occasions I had, what I thought were some great thoughts come into my head. While I was in the shower getting ready. During my drive to or from the office. Even in the evening as I went through the nightly routine of helping to get the kids in bed.
When I finally sat down and tried picking one of those thoughts, I had saved in my notes app and attempted to journal; I struggled to make it past the first couple of sentences.