Foundation for Change need not be Fear.

My foundation for recovery has changed a lot over the years.
Fear not Faith
“Let us obsess about freedom, not fear.”

Our priorities, change through the gifts of Recovery and through learning self-mastery. Faith serves as the firm foundation for courage in the future. And so many of us struggle with that word faith. Because we automatically connect to the same struggle we have with religion or with God. Continue reading “Foundation for Change need not be Fear.”

I’ve learned to not resent those who have what I don’t.

I’ve learned not to resent those who have what I don’t.
When I no longer resent I can be free
Joy comes not from what we have but from what we can share.

One of the things I’ve struggled with is resenting those with greener grass. Today I have the mortgage. The wife who never knew me drunk or high. The three kids that never knew me, drunk or high and two of them never even knew me to smoke cigarettes. Yeah. I’ve got a lot of those changes, what a brother calls ‘quality of life’ problems. Continue reading “I’ve learned to not resent those who have what I don’t.”

Sick and Tired of being Sick and Tired

No matter what we’re sick and tired of,

We don’t have to continue being sick and tired. There is a process capable of igniting change in our lives. The irony is that as soon as we make the decision to begin the 12 step process, we realize our fears of change, where groundless. This process offers a gentle program of change, one step at a time. No single step is so frightening that we can’t work it, by its self. As we apply the steps to our lives, we experience a change that frees us.

This whole time I’m sitting here thinking, it took a whole lot of sickness and a whole lot of being tired to get me back into this process of self-awareness and spiritual awakening. I think the reason was that my ego has allowed me to have a high mental/emotional pain tolerance. Continue reading “Sick and Tired of being Sick and Tired”