I will not put my Trust in you, but I will have Faith in you.
I remember a time when I was not able to drive myself around. I had to rely on others to get me to, and from meetings, or to and from work. Many a time I’d be sitting outside of the apartment complex waiting on someone to pick me up. They’d be running 30, 40 min or even an hour late. I used to get so pissed off. Eventually, I started realizing, that there are times when stuff happens, and there’s nothing we can do about it.
I’ve learned not to resent those who have what I don’t.
One of the things I’ve struggled with is resenting those with greener grass. Today I have the mortgage. The wife who never knew me drunk or high. The three kids that never knew me, drunk or high and two of them never even knew me to smoke cigarettes. Yeah. I’ve got a lot of those changes, what a brother calls ‘quality of life’ problems. Continue reading “I’ve learned to not resent those who have what I don’t.”
We don’t have to continue being sick and tired. There is a process capable of igniting change in our lives. The irony is that as soon as we make the decision to begin the 12 step process, we realize our fears of change, where groundless. This process offers a gentle program of change, one step at a time. No single step is so frightening that we can’t work it, by its self. As we apply the steps to our lives, we experience a change that frees us.
This whole time I’m sitting here thinking, it took a whole lot of sickness and a whole lot of being tired to get me back into this process of self-awareness and spiritual awakening. I think the reason was that my ego has allowed me to have a high mental/emotional pain tolerance. Continue reading “Sick and Tired of being Sick and Tired”